Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Just a regular Wednesday where I quit my job.

I took this picture right before I went in to double check the facts regarding my job. I was hopeful. I needed an answer. I got the answer.

Last night, I decided to quit my job. This morning I told my supervisor, then emailed the appropriate offices, and told my coworkers.

Simple as that really: I quit.

People had many reactions, and I'm not ready to explain to everyone. It was definitely the right decision, and I think it's perfect timing. If you believe in an omnipotent clock as I do, you know what I mean when I say, I knew this was all part of the plan.

Aaaaaaaaand, since I just decided last night to quit, I have no idea what will happen.

I have no job lined up.
I have no real plan.

I just know I'll be home with Bradley. This will be an all new chapter, a new challenge, a new fun time. 

And I'll be focused on my husband, my home, my chores and myself. 

Of course, I'm seeing this through pintrest lenses, and this is a peek into my dreams for this next chapter:
I'm waking up early to make breakfast for Bryan before work but also Bradley's big morning snack of blueberries and Cheerios. And now that I have time, I'll put the blueberries in a smiley face.

I have ample time to go to the gym once a day for a quick cardio blast so I get my sexy back.

Also, there's still time to go to my Chinese 101 class. I'm fluent by Christmas.

My husband loves how clean the house is and how always for dinner I'm trying out something that's #healthy #affordable #quick #bacon. And after dinner, I pick up all the dishes and wash them right then.

Bradley starts walking (his little steps a month ago were a one time moment) in front on me and talking in sentences. All because his smart smart mom taught him. 

I read books again. Fiction. Real stories and beautiful writing. I read outside with a paperback with Bradley playing with blocks in the grass. 

I sell all the junk that's taking up our garage. All the money gets spent on cute tubs to organize what's left into a perfect little closet.

Oh, and I'm fit back into size 4 stuff and look fit and I see myself in the mirror and I'm  like, Ooooh.

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That was really fun to write. Probably therapeutic.

I can't write about my life in three weeks because I don't know what it will be like. I'm going home, quitting, not working, not searching for work, staying home with my son, trying to catch up on the home.

I'm excited for a new time. I'm also dying for some change. Here we go. 


Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Life

Amy-poehler

Lord help me.


I'm gonna take a big swing.

My kid is a genius

Ok, all parents say it, but it's true. Check out his recent genius moments:

Saying all kinds of words- mama, da, ba (ball), ba boo (blueberries), ba ban (banana), lolda (all done), chut you (thank you), bo bu (brown bear), pu po (purple), bye bye, heh (here), stha (what's that?).

He can say the sounds of a dog (favorite), bear, lizard, three singing pigs (lalala from a book). I'm trying cat, owl, cow, bird, sheep, etc

He can help with undressing by stepping out if his shorts.

He understands commands like sit, come here (just like a dog), bring me that, can I see, put it here, hug, kisses, peekaboo/hide seek.

He's really getting fun!

Saturday, August 17, 2013

Ridiculous things my son does

My son is growing up in a weird house. So far, we have only two rules:
1) Be Nice - this is a great catch all, no hitting or biting, be nice. Eat what I cooked, be nice. Don't throw food or plates, dad will have to clean it up, be nice.

2) Sit in the Tub - non negotiatiable. Tonight I did my first "look" and he sat down immediately. I am a mom.

And so we are raising him in a weird way of freedom and curiosity with trust that he's smart enough to learn what we teach. 

Here's a few of the weird things he does:

- Fake sneezing. (All the time) adorable!
- Animal sounds (when asked) he does "What's a bear say?" Growl, dog- woo woo, owl - ou out. And the weird one: what's a lizard say? Of course: silence but sticking tongue out over again.
- Runs Scared from the Vacuum

Weird but adorable kid.

Friday, August 16, 2013

All my maternity and nursing items are gone.

I got rid of my maternity dresses, tshirts and pants about six weeks post baby. I lived in yoga clothes for the last part of maternity leave, but when I went back, I wore four inch heels and a skirt (not maternity).

I didn't realize I would be successful breastfeeding, so my two maternity pajamas stayed. And then I bought a nursing top. Or two. Or four. And since I've continued for one year, I needed them.

But now, I'm only nursing in the mornings but it's more about Bradley not wanting to wake up quickly and rocking and singing and snuggles. And I nurse again for a few quick, squirmy minutes after work, and that's it.

I have an international trip coming up in three weeks. Bradley isn't coming.

So the day of weaning is fast approaching. I have so many different feelings about my first year of motherhood and ending breastfeeding will really end the baby chapter.


It's time. It's coming. I'm ready...I think.

So tonight, I packed up all nursing bras, pajamas and tanks and put them in a maternity box in the garage.

Here we go...

Chapter Six: Little Boo Radley

Thursday, August 8, 2013

The honeymoon is over.

Our vacation was amazing. Highlights:
-Bradley's first birthday: it was everything I wanted, and the pictures are to die for. All our family in one house celebrating the cutest, chocolate loving baby.

-going to the beach. Eating the waves and laughing. Building sandcastles and digging like dogs. Not getting burnt.

-BRADLEY WALKING!!! First steps at the condo last week - and caught on video. Amazing.

-Disney World. We're addicted.


It was hard to come home to our home and go back to work today. So many emails. So much to catch up on. But tomorrow is Friday, and I'll be happy for my weekend.

In other news, my kid is growing up. He took whole cows milk today...and loved it! Drank it more and faster than water, almond milk or juice. I was scared he wouldn't like it, but he loves it! Score!

Also, I've begun weaning now that were back from vacation. Thus begins don't offer, don't refuse. Today I nursed him in the morning and right after work. He had a small 15 second cuddle nurse and then chose toys. I'm typing on my phone as I hold my sweet baby who fell asleep without nursing, just moms cuddle and a soft thin a&a blanket. 


I mean, life couldn't get more grand. Happy. 

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Dream day



This is our last full day at the beach. So far, it's been a dream day. 


We woke up early enough to catch part of the sunrise as a family. We sat on the beach together building sandcastles and digging up sand and banging seashells together and chasing birds and splashing in shallow waves. It wasn't too hot yet and it was truly a blissful moment together. 


We came up to the condo, showered and went down for naps. My sweet husband passed out in the giant bed and my sweet baby in my arms while I watch reality tv. So blissful.

For lunch were getting Publix subs (my favorite!!) and back to the pool and the beach and out to dinner to the Spanish grill again. 

This is true happiness. I love my family and I'm loving this vacation.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Vacation update

Vacation has been amazing.

Here are a few thousand words about it.











Sunday, July 28, 2013

Key the vacation begin

We had Bradley's mustachio bashio first birthday party. It was incredible. 

We spent today at Disney with Bryan's family talking about memories at the happiest place on earth. 

And now, we are settled in our beach condo. It's huge! It's clean! It's glorious. I stoked the fridge with piña colada mix and cheese and fruit and beer. I stocked the pantry with Oreos and chips and macaroni. I've checked out the balcony and claimed the best room. 

Let our weeklong beach vacation begin!

Friday, July 26, 2013

Happy birthday, Bradley Douglas!

It's here! One year ago at 3:46pm, Bradley Douglas was born into our family.

He's gone from being a tiny newborn

to being a cute baby

to being a world traveler

to being a comedy performer

to turning one year old

What a journey it's been. This year has been the most difficult year of my life. I have slowly grown into my role as a mother to a young human, and I really love the little dude.

HIGHLIGHTS:
He can communicate now. It's limited, but Bradley can use his words and sign language to communicate with us. His favorite word is mom and bye bye. He also can say baby, duh (dad), duh (all done), bbbbbbbbbbbb (boob/nurse), yay, ba (banana), ha (hello, hi) and occasionally papa. His signs have slowed, but he can sign all done, bye/hi, book and he can point at EVERYTHING, especially things he wants. He has come up with his own sign for no, and it is my favorite thing in the world. He has a pointed finger and he waves it around, almost like a sassy woman saying "Oh no you didn't" It's hilarious.

He loves books. He will actually say no when he doesn't want to read a certain book. His favorite used to be Brown Bear Brown Bear, but lately, he's refusing that one. He loves Pat the Bunny, Hippos Go Berserk (my favorite), Very Hungry Caterpillar, and Colors. He likes to flip the pages, and he will read a book by himself. He loves his bath books, too.

He is still a champion sleeper. He was going to bed at 6:30 and sleeping until 7am, but now he's going to bed around 7:30pm and waking around 6:30am. I'll take it! He falls asleep easily in my arms, and if he doesn't, I can put him in his crib and after about 30 seconds of protesting, he will quiet and fall asleep. It's beautiful.

He is still nursing twice a day: in the morning and after work. He is very, very adamant about it. If Bryan gets him in the morning (rare for my sleepyhead husband), Bradley will refuse to be happy until he's got me and until he's nursing. He will literally throw a tantrum after work while I take off my shoes and change before I nurse him. I'm trying to teach him that crying and throwing himself face first on the floor will not speed up my getting ready to nurse him, but as of yet, there is no progress. Since I have no real reason to quit, I will continue to nurse him until he weans. At this point, I do not see an end in sight. Twice a day is manageable.

He's been drinking almond milk since he refuses formula and any of my pumped milk (WHICH MAKES ME ANGRY. There goes my whole freezer stash, hours of pumping, cash for the bags and pump). But, it's okay. He likes almond milk and he likes water and watered down juice. This weekend, I will introduce cow's milk with finger's crossed. I have not had cow's milk in more than increments of sips since I was 2 years old. Wish me luck.

We made the switch from onesies to t-shirts. I have a few onesies in the size he's in right now (6-12 month, 12-18 month), but I'm trying to only buy new clothes in t-shirt and short sets. I might also be addicted to buying colorful shorts for him. They're just too cute! He can often wear the same outfit all day which is impressive considering a year ago, he would be in three to four a day.

He has seven teeth and uses them to crunch on Cheerios, puffs, crackers and anything else crunchy. I think crunchy is his favorite texture. He loves fruit like bananas, blueberries, watermelon, cantaloupe and grapes. He is obsessed with broccoli. If he sees it, he wants it. All other veggies are hit or miss, depending on his mood, how they're prepared and if he's cranky. He still eats baby yogurt like it's ice cream. Speaking of, I let him try my weight watchers ice cream bars, and he loves them. He loves ice cream (who doesn't?). His favorite other foods are rice, cheese, spaghetti, applesauce, chili, and toast. We're going to work on feeding him more meals. His typical dinner is an appetizer of Cheerios while I cook the food. Then he gets blueberries, cheese, crackers and whatever veggie we're eating. He has refused purées. He wants what were eating...unless he waves his hand around.

His favorite things to do include playing Peekaboo Barn on my cell phone, playing peekaboo with me around couches or walls, playing hide-n-seek (with me hiding), flipping light switches or dimmers, going swimming, splashing in the faucet, splashing in the bath, going for walks, chasing the Roomba, stealing remotes, pushing any and all buttons on any and all electronic devices.

He loves lights. The light in the car when you open the door. The living room light. Lamps. Lights from phones. Lights from alarm clocks. I mean, light is pretty amazing. Awe of technology.

The sweetest thing he does is hug. He will climb into my lap and rest his head on me and says Awwwww. It is the cutest thing. Of course, I saw awwww back and he must think hugs are called awww. I love this! He's still learning kisses, those come rarely, but they are sweet when he does give kisses.

He's crawling on his hands and knees. He is too cautious to walk. He must have hands or couches or tables or something to hold or he will plop to the ground and crawl. We got him a popcorn popper for his birthday. He loved it and then got too scared to use it. He's fearful and does not care to try to walk. 

He's really becoming a little person. He isn't a morning person. He's adorable and sweet and quite curious. And he has no idea what kind of awesome party he's in for tomorrow! 

Happy birthday, Bradley!